Filed under: Grace
i was laying on my stomach in the tub as i usually do. i was breathing in the hot fumes rising from the surface. i felt different in the water. i wanted it to wash away something…my sins? my weaknesses? my mistakes? or is it just my newly developing cold that has invaded my body?
i have always had a fondness for water and wind. as a child my mother would tell you i was a fish. i have always enjoyed swimming and baths. at times i have felt that i was never meant to be in my skin, in this body. when i was younger i would wonder what it would be like to be a boy or in a different circumstance. i have always felt awkward, like i was meant to be a different animal just not this species. i now wonder if every child has felt this way and i am certain every adolescent always wished to be anyone but themselves. but now in my thirties at times i still feel i am not supposed to be here. i am not certain if i believe in reincarnation but perhaps in the next life i will end up where i am destined.
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