something is not quite right.

something is off.

something is missing…

i am starting to realize more and more how much i miss a great voice in my ear making me come. i used to have that and it was in abundance. i didn’t even have to touch myself and i would orgasm. now it’s null.

i was watching The Reader tonight and getting stirred up from the movie. you are thinking it’s the sex i am getting hot over but it’s not that. it was watching the boy actor reflecting on his afternoon at the dinner table in front of his family. watching his face react and snap as his younger sister eyed him in suspicion. it was the scenes when he was reading out loud or speaking in latin. it’s those moments that strike me.

when i watched Sweeney Todd a million times it wasn’t just for the slashing of the throats or the singing. it was watching Sweeney Todd sing to his shiny, silver razor blades with such love and admiration. watching the judge’s fingertips glide on the old spines of the books in his library. that scene triggered me being in used book stores and the smells of the books and the intimacy of being surrounded by words.

it’s the mental that leads to the physical and some guys don’t get that with us women. we want to be mentally fucked before you even lay hands on us. you want better sex? you want her to swallow? you want to stick your cock in her ass? you have to get her HOT and she will bow to your every whim. it’s true and i’ll be the first or second to admit it.

i am a slave to a mindfuck. so the next time you are seducing the female sex, use that top brain before you dare use the other brain.

i was getting a few questions on anal play/sex since posting my latest sex toy i am reviewing: Sidekick Silicone Anal Plug on Twitter earlier this evening. this made me decide on writing a quick post on anal play for beginners.

first off, this is my take on anal play/sex and it works for me. this may or may not work for everyone so do not hold me accountable if you experience pain or have an unpleasant experience.

the most important thing to remember if you are a guy or gal, about to impale your partner with your penis or toy that the vagina and butt are two different orifices. this means you do not ram your penis or toy into a butt as if it were a vagina. this is a big no-no.

i don’t mean to be graphic or gross but you should remember the pain you can feel when going #2 and this pretty much the same for anal play/sex.

patience is very key when it comes to the butt and it helps tremendously if your partner is highly aroused. in the heat of the moment your partner is more relaxed and not tensing up at the thought of their butt about to be stretched. another key element is lube if she does not get super wet like some of us gifted females.

if your partner has never done anal play it’s probably best to start with a finger and move on to a beginner’s anal plug. slow and steady is the best way to go and i mean slow boys. at this point it’s best to listen to her and let her tell you if you should push in more of the toy. the key here is only pushing the toy in baby steps because easing it all the way in is not a good idea and can hurt her a lot, this would be the same for a penis. it’s best for her to make sure to breathe steadily and again not tense up. breathing out as the toy/penis slowly goes inside in stages is probably the best.

i have found with my experience is using the beginner’s plug daily for several days and when it goes in easily, it’s time to move up in the toy size. with the ass, the less you use it then you lose it. i know i haven’t done any anal play/sex in a long while and i have to start over with the gradual working up to a penis.

what are the benefits of a toy or penis in the ass? i enjoy the fullness and the pressure it causes if i have a toy in me and a cock in the vagina. some women are able to have a g-spot orgasm when receiving anal sex. it all depends on the angle and the penis for this benefit.

i hope that helps, if you have more questions you know where to find me.

on his Valentine’s Day i am writing about cock. you may be wondering why especially if you know me well because i would have mentioned that pussy runs the world sans for the gay male population. men strive for fame, fortune and rule to get the pussy, it’s true, i’m not lying. step back for a moment and look at our society, why do men dress nice, have nice cars and have good jobs?

ok so i’m straying from the topic.

back to the cock.

i was completely fascinated and in awe the other night after touching and stroking a cock. afterwards, i was left thinking intently about the miracle of a cock. you have this flaccid appendage that when excited or at rest becomes engorged with blood to a full erection and at times painfully erect. that is amazing to be able to truly and physically show true arousal. there is no fooling a cock, if the man is not aroused then there is no erection.

the more i focused on this probably overlooked phenomenon, the more i become curious and of course jealous. does the state of mind change with an erection? does the male become more primitive and NEED to fuck and/or cum? can it be like a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde scenario when an erection is present? are men equally amazed as i am with the science of an erection? what does it feel like slipping a cock inside of a pussy/mouth/ass? is it as gratifying as i feel being filled?

i will never know what it is like to experience the magic of an erection and i feel disappointed that in my life time there are just some things that a human cannot equally experience. so as a g-spot can by a mystery to some men, an erection is going to remain a mystery to me.

the room was almost pitch black with thin lines of parking lot lights creeping through the black out curtains of the room. i was nervous laying nearly naked beside him. his hand grazed my skin and the nerves struck even more. i wasn’t certain i was ready for this and that meant to some degree coming out of my dark spot. i was functioning like person should but inside i was torn apart. if you really paid attention to me you would notice i was focusing too much on the easiest of tasks and that my hands were shaking every so slightly. i was trying to fool the world i wasn’t in a dark place and yet who was i fooling?

he kept the soft touches and this went on for longer than it really should. usually i was “on” within seconds. i was worried his patience would be worn thin and i almost felt the vibe of him getting ready to give up. for a moment i just felt him touching me and finally it clicked. my breathing was growing heavier and it felt so nice to feel that again with him.

his hand moved down between my legs. he rubbed my thin panties and my hand pressed his harder against the fabric. i was vulnerable but i was on and i wanted to feel that oneness with him. my hand reached down to feel his hardness and once i feel him, it’s mere moments before he crawls between my legs pushing them apart and pushing inside of me. it’s always that first push that makes me crazy along with the slight hurt of being stretched to accommodate him. i held on to him tight, i wanted the closeness with him. this time, this moment it felt so emotionally intense for me. he was caring for me, loving me and it was what i needed to snap out of this sexual recession.