Gracie\'s Playground

triggers
Friday September 19th 2008, 7:15 pm
Filed under: Grace,Masturbation,Toy

this week seems to be wrath of hyper sensitive horniness.

i will see a picture.
read a sentence.
think a thought.
don’t ask about actually seeing porn or something erotic.

i am “On”.

i feel i have been in a form of sexual hibernation. one could tell by the looks of this blog. i used to write more frequently. i felt i peaked and then walked away from it all. this year has been so trying for me in so many ways that i care not to mention on a sex blog. who wants to read about that crap anyways?

today i had my laptop resting on my thighs with my legs pulled up. my right hand was using the track pad and it kept bumping against my nipple. that was driving me crazy and yet i let it happen several times. it took so much will to not stop and rub one out.

this week was glorious with my masturbation efforts. i had tested a new toy for review and managed some very intense orgasms. i love that release and that feeling of being so high.

i love the unknown.
i love the anticipation.
i love knowing.
i love feeling.

the sex with R only gets better every time we see each other. the anticipation hits me the hardest with him. he is a master at teasing. secretly, i think he likes hearing me beg for him to fuck me or the whimpers in my throat or even the squirming up against to him to feel more. i try not to scratch his skin off or bite a chunk of his flesh out however, there are times when i can’t control my actions with him. i can’t think rationally nor logically. it’s all about that moment, it’s the center, it revolves and it’s a whirlwind of lust. i know that i want more and more. i have grown into this insatiable nympho monster who only wants to fuck at every given chance. that’s not so wrong. *smile*

PS
since i have been out of the loop so long. if you are linking to me and have been around a while, please let me know.



tag
Tuesday September 16th 2008, 3:16 pm
Filed under: Deviant Dreams

Please note: the following is a Deviant Dreams post. read at your own risk.

the other night while talking with V, he mentioned he tied his ankles together while sleeping. i mentioned that a collar around the neck would have been better. “i don’t have one,” he explained. a thought sprung into my mind, “i want to make a tag with “v” on it,” i slithered. this thought inspired V in such a way that he wrote the following. yes, i am going to get a silver tag made for him. it just seems so fitting…

“v…”

the door opens to my closet flooding the dakness, exposing me naked and tethered. my cock hardness at Her voice.  Her heel digs lightly into my side.

“time for my slut to come out for a little while,” she purrs.  It’s the type of purr that, after two years, i still haven’t learned to decipher.  pleasure, malice, benevolence, disappointment?  i won’t know until i find out.  i suppose i shouldn’t try to second guess it, but i can’t help it sometimes.  She squats down, reaching over my head to untie me.  if i were stupid enough to look, i’d see Her shaved cunt exposed beneath her short black skirt.  She roughly pushes her breasts into my face as She loosens the leather strap, expecting and receiving no resistance.  my cock throbs.  it feels like forever since She let me out.

perhaps it’s because i strayed that she’s kept me locked up. but whether that’s out of spite or concern is something only She can answer.  all i know is that i’m grateful to feel the tug on my neck, leading me out into Her bedroom.  She holds the tether lightly in Her right hand as if i’m a show dog.  i try to keep my eyes on the back of Her legs and not Her ass that plays peekaboo under the skirt or fleeting glimpses of Her cunt lips.  She leads me to the center of the floor and turns on Her heel, staring down at me.

“kneel,” she smiles sweetly.

i raise myself to my knees, arms behind my back.  the head of my cock is purple from need.  i don’t remember the last time she allowed me to cum for Her.  i am only allowed to torture my balls and nipples while in the closet but not to touch my cock.  She surveys me for several minutes, walking around me, murmuring to Herself before stopping in front of me.  Her hand pushes under Her skirt pushing a small sigh from Her lips.

“you know better than to look, slut,” She lolls as Her fingers play, “you know much better than that.”  She pulls Her fingers  back, licking them clean, eyes boring into me to assure that i behave properly.  Quickly, Her foot shoots out towards my balls, stopping just short.  my eyes close in anticipation of the pain but i manage to keep my muscles from reacting.  i shake all over.

just as suddenly, i feel Her hand around my throat, Her voice ragged and husky.  “Goddamn you, v,” she breathes into my face, “you’d let Me, wouldn’t you.  you’d let me destroy your slut-balls without flinching.”  Her nails push deeper into my neck.  “Open your mouth.  Push out your tounge.” i do so and feel a stream of warm spit drop onto it. the pressure increases on my neck.  “Swallow,” she tells me almost breathlessly.  as Her spit glides down my throat, the tip of Her shoe nails my cock to my belly.

“jesus,” She moans, “I want to fucking hurt you, v.  and I plan to.  i’m not fucking happy that I had to go looking for you.  you’ll understand that soon enough.”  Her nails feel on the verge of puncturing my throat and i feel tears beginning to well up in my eyes.  “yesss,” She continues, “give me your tears, v.  I’m taking all of you.  every millimeter.  every cell.  I plan on drinking deeply from your cries and wails.”  Her other hand quickly and forcefully crashes across my face bringing a hard, high yip from my lips and unleashing the tears.

“mmmm,” She sighs in a cross between a laugh and an orgasm, “like that.  yessss, v, but much, much more heartfelt.  I do have a present for you, though, my little whore.  a nice, shiny silver tag with your name on it.  the only question that remains is…where to put it.”



Njoy Eleven
Sunday September 14th 2008, 12:02 pm
Filed under: Review,Sex,Toy

it looks menacing.
it feels menacing.
it weighs menacing.

using the Njoy Eleven has confirmed my love and lust for stainless steel. it’s hard to believe this is my first stainless steel toy and i guess when i do it, i do it big. it was Christmas when i got the email from Greg informing me he would send me the toy for a review. it was surreal to actually open up the box and hold this beautiful piece of steel.

yes, it is very heavy and holding it made me happier than gawking at the pictures online. waiting to use it with R was hard and the timing of its arrival was perfect.

“do you want to see my new toy?”

he turns on the light and takes the black case from me. he pulls it out and we both stare in awe of the large, shiny toy. the first thought that comes to mind when holding the Eleven is, “you could beat someone’s ass with this thing.” it’s true and probably why i keep it in my bag when i take those semi-long trips to R’s place. a multitasking toy is just extra points and well worth the price you pay for it.

my first interaction with the Njoy Eleven was post sex and panting. R maneuvered between my legs with the Eleven in hand. the anticipation of the tip of the ribbed side touching my skin sent me over the edge. at first it was cold and shocking, like a bite. when it found its way inside the chill was gone and it teased my g-spot immediately. i could feel the ribs of the metal pushing in and out. i gripped the bed, i gripped the sheets and i gripped the pillow i was lost. R’s tactful molestation had me wanting to come but the orgasms were stacked on each other. every so often he would release the g-spot stimulation and let me explode. i haven’t felt so helpless to wanting to come in such a long time. there were moments i would stop breathing because it felt to intense.

“someone needs a break,” R whispers.
i was so lost, it felt like someone stopped the ride and said to be careful when stepping to the right. i came back down to reality. i could barely talk. i was panting and trying to catch my breath.

“i take that will get a good review,” R inquires.
“oh,” pant “yeah,” pant.

is it worth $300.00?
my honest answer, fuck yes.

will it give me orgasms?
my honest answer, fuck yes.

is it too big?
my honest answer, no. my recommendation is to use it after sex or some kind of play. start with the smaller end and work you way to ther other side. it gives a great “full” feeling. not to mention the perfect curve to hit the g-spot.

the result: the bed was soaked with sweat and wet and i was a VERY happy deviant.

thank you Greg for sending me my favorite toy ever.
for more information go to: NjoyToys.com
if you have questions, i have answers.