yes i have been out of commission to the point that i am sure i have lost readers, etc. but it was never about that right? i write for me. at least that is what we all say in the beginning.

i have gone through some phases and perhaps one day i can share them. i would think they would be boring for a sex blog. i haven’t even been reading blogs like i used to. i wonder if i have just out grown this. perhaps reading other’s words spurs deeper emotions inside of me that are to some degree haunting.

i created a Tumblr blog (http://darkgracie.tumblr.com/) because it is simple and i can just write and post quotes. for some reason i hold THIS blog on a pedestal. i don’t want to corrupt it, ruin it and taint it with my nonsense.

i am trying to find the inspiration, the will to write.

V is still around and very dear to me.

E is of course here and will never go anywhere. he is the foundation to my existence. without him i would not be alive and i am not being dramatic. i am not sure if i have written this on here but E is Love and Life to me.

my mind is still in a filthy realm and i just wish my body would cooperate.

i can’t say this is over yet. i am just waiting for that bit of “oh” from the right source. i know it will come soon. i can almost feel it. it is nearing me. i must have been  overly blessed in the past.

i just need that “something”