i have been fighting this cold. i think i am winning but it still drags me down. i laid with my head on this chest in the bed. his hand would randomly roam the length of my back and occasionally make a soft grab at the curve of my ass.

“you should put on some panties for me.”

i lay there for a moment. i know i should stay there and rest. yet, i pull out of bed wanting to arouse him, wanting him to use me. i pull a pink thong out from the drawer and slip it on. he watches me and moans in approval. i crawl back in bed and lay my head on his stomach. his hand traces the small amounts of fabric and my hand feels his hardness through the blanket. how quickly he has hardened for me. i pull the blanket down, push his boxers down and push the head of his cock in my mouth. i suck him gently and it shifts to roughly.

“not so hard,” he groans.

i lighten my suction and grip him as i suck him. he pushes me on to my back and i squirm with anticipation as he shifts himself above me. his hand closes around my throat and i close my eyes feeling every inch of him tighten around my neck. i love watching him take my panties off as his hands press to my hips, roll them off from my ass, past my thighs, to my ankles and work themselves free.

his fingers travel my slit and his free hand covers my nose and mouth. he likes to watch my eyes flutter with the lack of air. my body jerking against this fingers that have made their way inside of me. the jerks get harder and i try to free from him and he likes to make it just a tid bit longer to push that much more over the edge of need.

“i want you to ride me.”

he lays on the bed and watches me pull up and straddle him. i am dripping with wetness and i grab his cock and push it inside of me. that first bit of penetration always makes me gasp with a primal need. i grip the head board and grind into this cock. his eyes watch my motion and his hands slap at my swaying tits. i fuck him with all that i have squeezing and pulling at his hardness. i close my eyes and my lip starts to curl on one side as i feel my orgasm mounting. i grip at the wood and the orgasm taunts me going away and coming back. i almost feel frustration nearing and i work it away. i keep fucking him and slowly letting it all go as my orgasms floods me without a climb.

“oh fuck…oh fuck….ssssshit.” i groan as my body shudders with a quake of pleasure and color. those several second of being on another plane of existence pulse through my blood.

i sit there clenching his cock. i am panting through it all and i fall off of him.

“no, you get back on,” he hisses.

“n-no, i can’t E.”

he pulls, grabs and positions my limp body back on to his cock. i tense up as he penetrates me for a second time. i scream obscenities at him as he thrusts himself up inside of me shaking the whole bed. i feel a rupture of orgasms spew from inside of me as he holds me on him not freeing me from his cock. we are bouncing on the bed and i feel breathless and weightless. i keep screaming and grip his hands that bind me to him. he stops and lets me free. i collapse on to the bed.

it is when he forces me that i love him so much.

i wasn’t sure why he was here. i forced a smile and he gave me a long hug. the last time i had seen him i had gotten so mad at him and it consumed my mind for days to follow. we were in the grocery store and started to dance with flirtation. i would be down an aisle and he would find me and brush up ever so slightly behind me. when he did this my body would crawl and flush with this unspoken desire. this couldn’t be him acting this way towards me. this cat and mouse chase happens all the way home.

moments later…

laying on a bed he is beside me. i am wearing a long tight dress and i know beneath is all black. my dress is hiked up to my thighs barely covering my panties. i feel his hand on my thighs and he wants to push between them to trace my pantie line. i won’t let him through and my legs are locked tight. i am afraid of what’s happening. my breath is quickening and my body shaking with this lust for him. i can hear his voice in my ear seducing me and i am literally fighting the whore in me from opening my legs to him. his hand pushes up my dress to graze the hidden black panties. i gasp at his touch and his seduction. this can’t be happening.

before i know it…

my dress is off and my panties are still on. he pushes me against the shower wall and my head hits the tile as my hands were too slow to catch myself.

“you are going to take this,” he hisses in my ear. “whether you are ready or not.”

i know i am ready as i gasp on the cold tile. i know when he pushes my panties to the side i am already wet. his finger push aside my panties and i can feel his finger tips sneaking a touch. i start to claw at tile trying to climb my way out. i feel him push inside of me from behind and i literally jerk myself awake thrusting my ass against this imaginary cock.

my heart is racing and my body is crawling with this forbidden desire. my hand goes between my legs to cup my cunt. i am not sure if i wanted to be real…fucking E’s friend.

he was groping his cock outside his jeans. i wondered just how long he would sit there rubbing his cock. i was finishing up some tasks and when i glanced at him randomly he was still stroking and grabbing. i watched his wedding ring flash against the lighting of the room.

“lemme see it.”

slowly he unbuttoned his jeans and slid the zipper down like a stripper.

“such a goddamn tease.”

“uh huh.”

he had my attention as he revealed his hardon to me. he started to stroke it slow enough for me to see the detail of his action. watching him jack off triggered this uncontrollable need to masturbate. my hand shoved down into my sweats and not surprisingly i was already wet. i lifted my leg over my chair and continued to watch him.

i watched his free hand go off from view. i saw the shadow of an exacto knife come into view. my hand sloshed in my wet cunt as it came into view. he slowly scraped the sharp blade on his cock and my breath grew ragged. i was quiet with my interactions with him i wanted to see what he would do next.

the blade started to shove delicately into the base of his cock. i gasped not knowing if he was just teasing or actually going to draw blood for me. i watched his fingers squeeze and i started to see a dark spot grow from his flesh. my finger tips slipping over my clit with a need and a moan gurgled in my throat. he was bleeding for me and i was getting off on it.

i kept cursing at him as he swiped the building glob on to his finger tip displaying it for my view. i watched him move his finger upwards towards his open mouth cleaning his finger with his tongue. the blood smeared and mixed with his saliva creating a diluted blood color. i looked down and watch more blood seep from his fresh wound, he wiped and smeared this blood away. the whole time stroking his hardon and i knew this was not all talk, he was getting off on this just as much as i was.

my body started to jerk and my moans and breathing was jagged as i kept cursing him with the weak breath from my lungs. i was soaking the fabric around me and my motions were frantic and needy as i was focused on his bleeding, hard cock. i started to come hard and was riddled with tenseness. i sat there panting, trying to regain my breath with my hand still in my wet heat. my body was shaking.

“cum.”

i watched him take hold of his cock firmly and up against his belly. i watched the white ooze shoot out immediately. i love that he can cum on demand.  i kept rubbing my sensitive clit to another orgasm as i gazed at his cum covered flesh.

that image was burned into my mind and was the very thought that caused my orgasms for days to follow.

thank you V.

“come here.”

laying on the bed under the covers, he patted his chest. i knew what he wanted. i dropped my robe to the ground and pulled my hair out of the pony tail. i crawled on top of him reverse with my head resting on a pillow by his feet, i pushed myself upward so my pantied covered ass was in his face. i don’t know why he enjoys this so much, but i like to entertain his quirks.

his hand rubbed my ass and would lazily trail to my cunt. his finger tips would graze up and down in such a random way i was going crazy. i kept slightly shifting on top of him. i was cock hungry and cannot remember the last time he pushed his cock inside of me. i tried to lay there as i closed my eyes. the last time we did this i just fell asleep. every few touches i would push myself against him. randomly he would shift the fabric aside for the slightest of touches that drive me mad with anticipation. i couldn’t tell if he was hard or not with the thick blankets that was a barrier between us.

without warning he pushed me off of him and i was startled. i looked at his face to see if something was wrong. i watched him stare intently at me as he pushed his underwear down. my lips parted as he grabbed my panties off only getting one leg out as he pushed between my legs. he hovered over me as he slipped inside and i sucked in a deep breath with the motion. it had been much too long and i felt dizzy with this sensation of him fucking me. i wrapped my legs around him clenching him tight and holding on as if i was falling. my nails dug into his shoulders as he fucked me with need and focus. i felt so starved and i felt my body melt into his. i wanted all of him in me as i thrust against his motion. i pulled my legs up to get all of his penetration, i wasn’t getting enough of him as my grunts and moans were frantic. i felt myself flood around his cock and soon felt the hot wetness beneathe me. i tried to stare into his eyes but i could not keep them open. my eyes would just flutter and roll back into my head. as soon as my lids covered my sight i could see images, images that caused me to groan.

his mouth went down to suck roughly on my nipple. i slid my hand up his body and latched on to his nipple. when his mouth released my free hand gripped and tugged on my own nipple as he fucked me harder and faster. it started to cross my mind that he was going to cum inside of me. there is always this fear in my mind with the risk that we do not use any protection. i started to thrust hard against him trying to grind my cunt into his cock. my grips got tighter and tighter as we hissed in pain and racing for the last leg of this fuck. he started to grunt as he came and emptied his cock deep inside of me. i clenched his cock not wanting him to pull out.

slowly he eased out of me and made his way to the bathroom to clean up. as i tried to catch my breath my hand went straight for my dirty cunt. i dipped my finger tips at the swollen entrance to my cunt. i coated my fingers with his cum that was slowly seeping out. i traced my fingers touching the slit, the folds up towards my clit. i stroked it up and down feeling the warm sticky cum on my skin. i started to breathe ragged and moan quietly as my body jerked to an orgasm. i slid my fingers down inside of me to feel the cum inside of me and i slid them up and down my used cunt. E walked back in with a washcloth watching me rub his cum on me.

there is something very necessary about a cock and even more the cum.

—on a side note—

i wanted to take the time to congratulate V on his nomination for Best Male Blog on DirtySpoke.com. i am proud of him because he really is a wonderful writer with a mind that i can just curl up in.

i was excited to see my darling O of Eros, Logos nominated, all though she should have been in all available categories.

a new blog that i stumbled upon and i am sure through O was Desire X and they were nominated for the Couple Category along with a few other bloggers in the same category The Biker’s Balls and Teacher’s Tits, the known Viviane’s Sex Carnival (which i have not read closely to know that it was a couple’s blog, shame on me) and AlexSuze. that will be a hard category to choose from.

congratulations to all the nominees.

of course there are great bloggers out there that were not nominated and it is too bad that i did not get to see them nominated. maybe next year.

our words lashed back and forth and neither of us was not backing down. the frustration was about to explode and i wanted nothing to do with him. at times i cannot understand him nor his “wants” or “desires”. he seems complicated to me and that makes us both complicated to be each other at times. usually we work well together most times and when we don’t, we really don’t and it is a vicious match.

he tried to push the covers from my naked body and i just kept them tight against my skin.
“come on don’t be like that.”

“don’t fucking touch me.” i hiss back at him. i was furious and hurt. i almost felt stupid as my inner demons are the downfall to my 100% of confidence.

my lack of trying to sort this out enraged him and i can see his face grow fierce. he pulled the covers from me and i started to kick and push him away from me. he grabbed my arms and pulled them up as he groped my breasts. i tried to push him off of me.

“is that all you got?” he was egging me on.

i started to grunt and push him off me, only to have him come back in to force himself on top of me. one hand gripped my wrists while the other one forced between my legs into my cunt. my back arched and i groaned. i let up on my fight with him and he let go of my wrists. i sat there for a moment as he fingered me with clenched teeth, hissing at me. my right hand went up and slapped him hard against the face. this infuriated him and he grabbed my wrists roughly again. his fingers pulled out of my cunt as he started talking back at me and slapped my face emphasizing each statement.

his fingers pushed back inside of me, i felt forced to be submissive and i caved in to his will. he was far from gentle with me as he invaded my cunt with an anger that i knew would be spurred by that slap to his face. he stopped his act of violation and walked out of the room. i heard running water from the tub and he came back in.

“get in the tub.”

i pulled off the bed and walked to the tub. i got in the hot water and waited for him as it filled slowly. he came back in the bathroom with toys.

“turn over.”

i turned on to my stomach in the tub.

“get that ass up.”

i pushed my ass out of the water and i felt him work in a dildo. i gasped as it worked its way into my tightness. he fucked me hard and placed his free hand under my chin by my throat. i was grunting in my throat as he tightened his grip. he let me go and pushed my head under the water. i wasn’t ready for it and tried to push up out of the water. yet, he kept me under. i grew desperate and started to push upward and he let me out. i gasped for air in and out as my lungs stung with pain. he kept fucking me in the water without flinching at the commotion.

his hand pushed at the back of my head and i went back down under the water. his fucking me grew faster and faster. i felt that orgasm aching to be released and i came with a scream under the water. the bubbles were all around me reaching for the surface. during that moment i forgot i was under water and that i needed air. as i started to come down i pushed up again and he let me up as i panted from the orgasm and lack of air.

i leaned my head against the tub as he cleaned up the water that overflowed from the tub. he didn’t say a word to me and got up to head to the bedroom. i just laid there with my thoughts feeling better, but needing his cock inside of me.