my cum slut II
AUTHOR NOTE: This is part II of an installment. You can read the first part if you like. If you don’t, I really don’t care.
your heart sinks when you hear those words. sometimes i mean it and sometimes i don’t. you feel at this moment it cannot be a “reward” for you, but perhaps a reward for me or maybe the other party goers.
the room is awkwardly quiet. the cum is drying all over your body. it feels as if you are being wrapped in a corset of cum. your mind is reeling from what you just experienced. “a feminized man getting a bukkake from other men”. this is a new low even for you baby.
i pull you upward with your leash and to your feet.
“mmmmm my baby aren’t you a sight!” i say in such a chipper tone. “i should take a picture for my scrapbook.”
you dare not say a word and ruin my good mood. you can sense digital camera lights flashing as you stand there. you can only imagine what you look like. your cum drenched body with drying cum not even dripping away from you male flesh. it is clinging to you as a constant reminder. would you even look at the pictures?
“FUCK NO!” you scream in your mind.
your mind tries to think of revenge on me. yet you cannot shake the thought of what you just went through. you know very well you have to rise above this to give me something more humiliating then this stunt i pulled with you.
i tug you back down the hallway. you are shifting stiffly and i smirk at your cum stained girl body. my beautiful cum slut. you hear shuffling behind you as you are being led down the hallway. you are praying it is not the men. you would have to scream the safe word if it were those cock hungry men. you start to think, do we even establish a safe word?
“FUCK!” you scream again in your mind as your fists clench. “THAT CLEVER BITCH NEVER DISCUSSED SAFE WORDS. I NEVER THOUGHT SHE WOULD PUSH TO THESE AREAS! SHE HAS ALWAYS TALKED ABOUT SAFE WORDS WITH OTHER MEN. THE CUNT!”
your breathing gets heavy and mad. before you could stew longer on your rage for me you feel hands tugging away your cum drenched girl attire.
“hahaha, it is a good thing you shaved baby,” i laugh. the peeling of the clothes feels like band aids being pulled off raw skin. “see i am watching out of your baby,” i coo.
“CUNT!” you think.
the last thing to come off is the scarf. your eyes adjust but it does not take long because it is dark in the bathroom. you see flickering shadows that appear to be female. you heart seems to fall at ease.
“get in the tub baby.”
there is no water in the tub, yet it is plugged closed. your cock aches from being released from it cunt makeshift prison. you can see cum dried every inch of your body that was not covered by clothing in the flicker of the light. you sit back into the cold porcelain tub.
a woman steps inside the tub. she stands above you, feet on each side of your thighs. you stare upward at her. she is wearing a short skirt with no panties on. your cock twitches at the sight of her pink, bare cunt. before you can harden she starts to pee on you. you flinch a little at the beginning of her stream. it is hot and warm. you can smell her musky cunt. you cannot control your cock as it hardens. this seems like a twisted reward. better then men pissing on you.
“drink her piss for me baby,” i say behind you.
you bend forward into her stream with your mouth open. anything to get the cum taste out of your mouth. her piss is warm and tangy. he stream weakens and stops. she gets out of the tub and the next woman takes her place. her cunt has a small landing strip and her lips are swollen. you think to yourself…”slut”. she starts to release on you. your cock hardens as each girl takes her turn peeing on your skin, face, mouth. i ask you to drink some while just showering in other streams. the tub is starting to rise in yellow fluid.
as each girl leaves her gift in the tub to you she exits the bathroom. i am the only one left. you have calmed only slightly. you are now sitting in several inches of women piss. i get in the tub. your cock twitches in its hard state. you think i am going to piss on you. i pull the plug of the tub. let the yellow rewards drain away.
“look at your baby,” i whisper. you cannot see it in the darkness but my face is flushed. i am in an intoxicated state with you. “you are a mess.”
i turn the faucet on. pour in soap into the clean flowing stream. your tense body starts to finally relax in the hot, soapy fluid. i let my robe fall as our eyes are locked. you can see my nipples hardened and my cunt swollen.
“slut,” you whisper.
“yes, baby, your slut,” i answer.
i slide in the tub in between your legs, letting your hard on press against my stomach. my lips press against yours. i bite your bottom lip as your hands travel up my back. you squeeze me against you. your hands rest on my shoulders. you are contemplating choking me till i pass out and seek your revenge. perhaps lock me in dark basement for a week letting disgusting men come in a fuck and cum on me or having me suck off their filthy cocks. your cock twitches at the thought. instead you let me have my glory for tonight. soon you will get your way. you want the payback to be much greater then this.
induced panic
a small scratch on my face and slight bruising on my neck i gawk at myself in the mirror. i am not horrified, more…impressed. perhaps that is the wrong choice of words, but it IS a reminder of what we did last night.
i almost enjoy pissing him off just to get a rough reaction that i crave. i hid an email from another man on purpose from his view. he did not mention it till we were both in bed.
“who was that email to?”
i grin a little nervously. i did not say anything.
before i realize it, i have a hand around my throat and i am flat on my back. i gasp a little at the sudden action. i can feel my cunt getting wet. he shoves in two fingers inside my cunt without warning. my back arches and i groan.
“you are such a whore,” as he tightens his grip around my throat.
he pushes me upward to wrap a scarf around my neck. he wraps it around and pulls the end tight. i gasp feeling the material pinch my skin. the pressure in my head increases and i can feel my jugular pulsing heavily. i grow dizzy. my eyes start to flutter. i am starring in his face. he is intent with concentration.
he lets go and i fall limp. my head falls to the side as i feel so drained of everything. he leaves the room and i lay there almost lifeless. i feel like sleeping. i can feel my cunt pulsing.
i can see him delicately holding a piece of plastic wrap between his hands. he places is over my face. my eyes get big as i start to breath heavy. my breath is fogging up the plastic as he shoves his cock inside me. i contract and squeeze his cock as i struggle to breathe behind the plastic barrier. i can hear myself gasping for air as the plastic shoves inside my nose and mouth. it is a breath jail i am in. he is paying attention to my face as he fucks me. i am not sure if he is going to set me free from this obstacle. i keep gasping my arms flailing about. my primal instincts kick in and i rip the plastic from my face with my nail scratching below my eye. i gasp for air as if i had just come back from the dead.
he pulls out of me, adjusts the plastic and places it back over my face. i am barely recuperated. i already start to feel a panic as i gasp for air and he jams his fingers inside my cunt. i feel myself leaking all over his fingers down to my asshole. i feel one finger enter my ass, then two…then three. if i could yelp i would have. my mind was focused on air. the need for air as i contracted against his fingers cumming in a panic. i rip the plastic off once again desperately reaching for air.
my cum slut
you are in a day dream state as you are wash up your body and prep to shave…shave everything. it is one thing to try to explain away cuts on your stomach, but it is entirely another to explain a shaven body. she had believed the hive attack on your stomach from some reaction to something you had eaten. you never gave her a reason to think you were deviant and most of all cheating. why i adore you baby.
in a distance you hear laughter and glass clanking.
“why are you doing this,” you ask yourself. “you are one huge slut to let this woman make you dress like a girl for her friends. stupid fool.”
“ouch!” you nicked yourself at the top of your pubic area. perhaps this line of thinking can be done later. as you proceed to pay careful attention to your shaving task.
arms, legs, under arms, face, chest and pubic regions so smooth and clean. just like a girl. you glance at the “attire” that had been laid out. a wig, utterly short skirt, stuff padded bra, panties, white button blouse, a collar and leash and lastly a leather strap to tie back your cock.
“you have got to be kidding me,” you murmur. “that fucking cunt has got to be dreaming for me to wear all of that.”
and like a sixth sense i come in the door with a glass of wine in my hand and a fading grin on my face. piercing eyes glaring at you and shifting to your waiting attire. i walk quietly over to you, hand you my glass of wine and grab the back of your hair yanking your head backwards.
“mmmmm, now baby don’t you spill my drink,” i hiss as i bite your ear lobe harder then i should. “now, why haven’t you dressed up for me baby hmmmm? don’t like the outfit?” you know better then to respond to suicidal phrases. “you realize baby if you don’t do what you promised for me i will just be angry and you don’t want to see me angry do you?” as i slap on your cheek harder then i should.
then gripping your chin digging my nails into the flesh. you take in a deep breath as you fight urge to let out a painful groan. your hand grips the stem of the glass, you try to let up in fear of shattering it. the red liquid starts to sway up the edges nearing the top. “steady” you think, trying to escape the pain.
“i suggest you hurry up, my guests are getting anxious to see my cum slut,” i soothe as i let up my claws from your face. “when you are done…” i untie the long scarf from around my neck. “…tie this around your eyes.” you notice bruising on my neck. your cock twitches at the sight.
my lips curl into a grin and my eyes slowly move downward seeing your hardening. my eyebrow raises with amusement.
“you are such a slut baby,” i whisper, grabbing my glass from your hand and turning around to head out. i hold up my hand with five fingers outreached. “five minutes.”
the door shutting behind me you start to move. five minutes as a man is easy. five minutes as a man to dress like a woman a challenge. as you race to beat the clock, your mind is racing why you keep allowing yourself to be put in such predicaments for another slut. is it the way she is just sweetly aggressive? is it the way she easily understands how the slutty mind works? or is it knowing that she is laying somewhere rubbing her cunt dreamily conjuring up this “sessions” for the both of you?
“i knew i shouldn’t have told her to dress me like a bitch to show off for her friends,” you mumble as you adjust a very whorish wig on your head.
you tie the black scarf around your eyes. without a second to ponder the door swings open. you hear clicks of heels on the floor coming nearer to you. the clicking stops behind you and two hands reach around one going for your fake breasts and the other darting between your legs and up the skirt. the fingers trace the outline of a makeshift cunt.
“mmmmmm,” a whisper on the back of your neck. your cock hardens against your ass. “i like your smooth, shaven cunt baby.” my fingers rub the slit. “mmmm, we are going to have so much fun tonight,” i breath so quietly.
my hands leave your body and fidget with the scarf. you feel it wrap above the collar and tighten into a strangle. you gasp with your hand instinctively reaching to the scarf. your eyes start to bulge behind the black cover. you feel me tug you towards the door. you try not to stumble and just when you thought you would fall with the dizzy feeling, i let go. you gasp with your chest heaving.
“mmmmm you look just like a strangled bitch with your tits heaving baby,” i say in amusement. “come on let’s not keep them waiting,” as i grab the leash attached to your collar and lead you down the hallway to the noise of the party.
your heart is racing as the laughing seems to quiet a little. the room soon falls silent as you are led in.
“sit down baby,” as i push you on a padded surface. “now lay on your back like a good girl,” i soothe into your ear. you feel me fidget with your attire and position you with your arms upward dangling from this padded table and your legs spread. your heart is racing knowing when i “soothe” that you are in for a rude awakening.
you start to feel fingers and hands lightly touching your body. you tense up, they are not all soft female hands. your lip curls a little.
SLAP
you feel a hard surprising slap across your face. you are jolted and shocked.
“you will enjoy this baby,” i hiss harshly directly into your ear. “you will convince me you are going to get off on this my cum slut. don’t you make me look like a fool in front of my friends or so help me god, you will regret your actions.” i like the outline of your ear and your cock starts to twitch again.
you can hear voices starting to stir. conversations start to continue as hands start to grope and touch your body. one rough hand is fingering your cunt. the finger trails down to your asshole. it shoves inside of you roughly. a grunt forms in your throat. your hands clench into fists. you keep your face stone as his finger moves in and out. you try not to clench or lead him to believe you are enjoying this.
“she is lovely grace,” the intruding man’s voice says. “she is making me hard.”
“gooood,” i coo. i am standing nearby watching your face. you think it is stone for me but you are writhing in humiliation. i know you are cursing me in your mind. i know you want me to pay. i smile out the corner of my mouth as i watch random guests come up and probe, prod, grope and touch my cum slut.
as you are thinking of how many different ways to choke me out you feel undoubtedly a cock slap the top of your foot. you twitch in shock. trying to “convince” me you stay put with your lips pursed shut. you are a prison on this table narrow enough for the width and length of your body. the cock is rubbing up your leg and then you feel another one rub right on your cheek. you can feel his precum smearing into your skin. you then notice the noise of the party is all female and the hands on your body are all male.
you feel your temperature rise as this is NOT what you hand in mind for my “friends”. you had made the terrible assumption that i would have my female friends gawk and use you. cursing me in your head you try ever so hard to “convince” me since you did not know where i was standing if near you at all.
feeling more cocks rub on you and the sense of some of them jerking in your direction you only wish you could escape this scene. you hear a familiar moan and slurping noise.
“THAT CUNT!” you yell in your mind. “SUCH A SLUT, SUCKING OFF THESE GUYS IN FRONT OF ME!”
you know i am making my rounds. making sure my friends are adequately entertained. so focused on hearing me sucking and slurping you flinch when a stream of hot cum hits your face. you try to keep everything closed in fear of it seeping into your mouth.
“AHHHHH,” the man groans as he rubs his pulsing cock head in the cum on your cheek. “YEAAAHHHHHHH.”
you feel hands push up your skirt and pull your panties down. you start to fear of rape. are these men going to fuck you? what are they going to do to you?
the familiar hand shoves in two fingers into your ass. you clench in pain. this asshole is not using lube. you feel him pull out and then he spits on to your ass, forcing his two fingers back into your ass. another hand plays with your fake cunt and rubs your pushed aside cock. your cock starts to harden. another hand pulls open your blouse sending the buttons flying in all directions. more hands start to roam your exposed body. hands groping your fake breasts, hands shoved underneath your bra pinching and tugging your nipples.
you notice now the women have stopped talking. you feel some soft touches here and there on your body. you hear more slurping and moaning with some male groans.
i come near you and shove your mouth open forcing in my four fingers in your mouth. my lips near your ear, “how do you feel baby? now do you feel like a cum slut?” i whisper in your ear so quietly. “i am rubbing my cunt baby, you are making me wet with this cum drying on your face. mmmmm.”
you start to hear more groans and then feel streams of hot cum on your cunt, on your stomach and more on your face with my hand forcing your mouth open. a dribble of cum slithers into your mouth. you want to gag and spit it out. however, knowing your place right now, you swallow.
“mmmmm, that’s right baby,” i hiss. “make me happy. be my cum slut baby.”
you are unsure just how many men are there cumming on you and you are not knowing if they are going for seconds cumming on your body. it seems more are shooting their loads on to your face since you mouth has been forced open. you dare not bite down on my invasive fingers. random bits of cum make their way in your mouth like a game of basketball. one man shoots quite a bit of his load in your mouth as it slimes its way down my fingers into your throat. you want to gag. i have gone too far this time.
the two fingers in your ass increases to three. you know this guy is jacking off as he finger fucks your ass. you start to feel your skin tightening as some of the cum is starting to dry. your finger fucking male takes his fingers out and wipes them in a pool of cum on one of your legs. he forces i four fingers and your groan in pain and furry. he is grunting now obviously excited about finger fucking my cum slut in the ass. he pulls his fingers out and you hear him grunting towards your face. my hand forces your head towards him and he unloads his cum right into your mouth. i push your head upward and you force the load down.
you hear panting and no more slurping or sounds of anxious hands rubbing cocks. it is quiet. you are wondering if everyone left. my fingers are still in your mouth. your mouth growing so tired from lock jaw.
“mmmmmm don’t you look used baby,” i say with a grin. i pull my fingers out of your mouth and you clamp your mouth shut. “mmmmmm you look so fucking good my cum slut.”
you feel my hand start to play in the various pools and streams of cum. i wipe it all on your mouth.
“come on baby,” i coo. “lick your lips for me baby.”
you shake your head. you have had enough for a lifetime. you are determined to end this “relationship” we have.
“baby, you are a slut…tonight my cum slut,” i coo softly. “make me happy baby, lick your lips,” my voice transforms into a snarl.
thinking this will all end if you do this last thing you force you mouth to part. your tongue hesitatingly creeps out and licks starting at the corner across the bottom and up across the top. you feel this disgusting mixture glob fall on to your tongue and shove down your throat. you choke it down. you almost gag and vomit.
“mmmmmm that is my pretty little cum slut,” i say with joy. “i have a reward for you.”
part two: here
my dead toy
You laying on a black, rubber sheet, spread like a submissive slut. Bound with hard, cold metal cuffs that your body is quickly warming up. Your cock is already fucking hard like the slut you are. I can see a small amount of leakage at the tip. So fucking hungry. I pull down my drenched panties and stuff them into your hungry mouth. You don’t fight me my slut, because you want to taste me.
I put on a cock ring. you wonder….why? We both know your cock is always hard like a whore wanting to impale any fucking wet, hot hole…even a dry hole at times. Oh you will see baby.
I straddle you right above your stiff cock. Letting it rest against my round ass. You twitch feeling my skin (you slut) and you twitch even more when you feel my creamy wetness hit your skin. I slowly slide upward towards your face, you see this evil fucking grin come into your view. I stick a heart monitor pad on your chest. You did not even notice the machine to your left until you hear you heartbeat. It starts to race a little.
“Shhhhh baby, it will be okay,” I soothe to you.
I slide up more to your ear keeping my view on your eyes. I pull out a syringe, tear the packet of an alcohol prep and rub your bound arm. I see your eyes widen, you start to muffle in defiance and shake your head. Your mind racing wondering is she going to fucking kill me, is she going to sedate me? The needle penetrates your hot skin and the liquid is emptied into your system.
“Oh baby,” I whisper so delicately in your ear. “I would not make you sleep, I know how much of a slut you are. You want to see and feel. I promise baby you will feel, you may not see it all.”
I laugh a little when your heart rate subsides just a little.
“Oh this is going to be so much fun,” I say with such a grin.
You feel the muscles in your body start to lose your control. You can not writhe with objection. It starts from your feet and works its way up. Your heart rate increases…are you dying?
“Mmmmmm baby, you make me so wet.”
With that it reaches above your waist, crawling up to your chest. You are paralyzing and you start to realize. Your head starts to shake from side to side as you try to scream “NO!” with your stuffed mouth.
I start laughing as your head slowly stops telling me no. I grin and watch your heart rate drop a little. As you accept this fate I have bestowed upon you. I flick at your rigid cock and I squeeze your balls more then I should. Your heart rate shoots up and I know in your mind you are screaming, screaming at me with all your might, “YOU FUCKING CUNT, I AM GOING TO KILL YOU! I AM GOING TO RIP YOU OPEN, MAKE YOU BLEED! FUCKING BITCH!”
“Shhhhhh, now baby. Don’t you trust me, you know I will take care of you making sure you can feeeeeel,” as I dig my nails into the shaft of your cock.
I cannot rid this grin on my face as I climb on top of your cock. You can see my face now bouncing in and out of view. I can see the plea in your eyes as they dart when I bounce upward into view. You feel nails drag downwards starting at your chest. You burn with pain, you know I have gone much too deep.
“Goddamn baby you feel so fuckinggg g-goooodddd,” I moan. “Myyyy d-dead t-toyyyy. Eyyyy ammm g-gonnnaa cummmm onn y-yourrr life life-lessss f-fleshhhh.”
I come so hard on you I fall off. Your cock still rigid. This couldn’t be it. You know this is not over with. Your heart rate increasing as your mind races. The only thing you can control, yet you know I am making your mind race in wonderment. You are so fucking enraged at me. You want to beat me to bruise and blood. You should have known better to allow this. To trust another slut.
“Mmmmmmm baby,” I pant, trying to regulate myself. “You are so fucking amazing. You are a slut for me right?”
Your heart rate starts to increase.
“Baby, you will do anything for me right,” I coo in your ear. I start to unlock the handcuffs and restraints. “Yessss, you won’t be needing these anymore. Mmmmmm my slut, I want you to take a real cock for me.” I whisper in your ear gently and lovingly licking your lobe. “I want to see your cunt get fucked baby. I want you to take a cock so I can see your cunt leak with cum like mine baby. Please baby?”
Your mind screams even more “NOOOOOOO! YOU FUCKING WHORE! YOU ARE DEAD!”
“Now baby, shhhhhh,” watching your eyes dart in every direction. “We both know you are not gay baby. You are not going to let this be a conflict on your manhood are you? Just this once for me baby. Let me come to you being cummed in. I would do it for you” I say with an evil grin.
“OF COURSE YOU WOULD YOU FUCKING SLUT!” your mind screams. “YOU WOULD TAKE TWO IN EVERY HOLE AT ONCE YOU CHEAP WHORE!”
Your heart is racing and my grin gets bigger.
“Good, I am glad you agree,” I slither. “Oh you can not be disagreeing too much baby, I see that precum pooling at the top of your beautiful cock head.”
You feel me lick the top of your cock. You cannot tell if you are going to cum or not. You cannot even twitch.
I get up from the rubber coated bed. You hear whispers.
“That fucker has been in the room the whole time,” you are wondering. “FUCK!”
You start to hear some light moaning, slurping and a slap. You feel aroused again, yet hesitant.
The bed shifts, you know it is not my weight. You feel a cock press against your ass. It is lubed and hot. There is nothing you can do.
“It’s okay baby, I am here,” I whisper in your ear.
You are startled and did not realize I was right next to you. My heat is against your skin. Fingers probing at your wounds. Licking the drying blood.
Suddenly your mind screams with furry as the cock pushes in without any remorse. The pain is excruciating. His cock is fucking your cunt. You want to kill me. You can’t see this man fucking you. It is a good thing.
“MMmmmm baby,” I murmur. It is obvious I am extremely turned on by your cunt getting fucked for me. “He is fucking your cunt hard. Can you feel it?”
“NO SHIT CUNT!” you scream in your mind.
“Mmmmmmmm yesssss,” I moan. Rubbing my cunt beside you as you get railed in your cunt for me. “Cum in my slut’s cunt now!”
You hear a grunt and a moan. Hot cum exploding in your cunt for me. You are enraged. He pulls out after his last spasm inside of you. He pulls out quickly and you hear a door open and shut.
“Mmmmmmm babyyyyy,” I coo. “Your fuckinnnggg cunttt is l-leaking c-cum. UNNNNGGGHHHHHH!”
My fingers play with the cum and push back inside of your ass. I start to fuck your used ass with two fingers. Slipping so easily in and out.
“Mmmmm what a stretched out cunt. You are such a fucking slut baby.”
I reach into your ass and massage your prostate. This is not how you wanted to cum. I probe it, fucking your cunt. Your cock twitches and slowly leaks its cum.
“Mmmmmmmm, you like that baby? Getting your cunt fucked till you cum for me?”
I lick your cum drenched cunt, up to your sweaty balls, up your cum drenched cock, taking your cock in my mouth, down your shaft all the way in my mouth hitting my throat and back up with a release. I can taste both of the cum loads in my mouth. I swallow.
“Thank you baby.”
punishing the naughty
Monday August 28th 2006, 9:24 am
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“did you have a good time by yourself,” as he noticed my dildo and plug in the sink drying.
i looked at him a little surprised. i did not respond to his question.
“bitch, i asked you a question,” walking over to me.
“so,” i barked back in defiance. i immediately thought of you and what i had done several hours before. i almost smirked knowing i was wrong, i was naughty and i was being a total slut.
he yanks me upright in bed, stares in my face, grabbing at my breasts that are hidden underneath a tight microfiber, blank tank top with matching panties. he notices my attire bends down to my face as i squirm at his touches.
“you are such a fucking slut.”
i whimper with approval.
“you are a nympho.”
i am pressing up against him. i want him. i want you through him.
“stand up i want to see you.”
i slowly stand facing him. he gawks at me, i feel shy as he stares and adjusts my top, pulling it down to expose the tops of my breasts. he gets up and comes back with my black heels. he sets them facing the wall. i know what he wants as i step into them. i push my ass out with my hands against the wall.
“yessssss,” he groans. “you are one hot piece of ass. shake that ass for me. mmmm yeah, come here slut.”
i turn around and walk towards him. he has his cock hard in his hand, sitting at the edge of the bed with his legs open. he points to the bed and i know he wants me to bend over his leg on to the bed. he starts beating my ass. in the beginning i am getting so wet, loving the pain. thinking about you spanking my ass with rage. the hits grow harder and in the same place. i start to yelp, you continue beating me and i start to cry out in pain. my hand swings back like a child being beat by her father in need of that moment to stop to breath through the hard stings. you grab my hand and throw it aside. beating me as i continue crying out.
i feel my dildo push up inside me. i groan and tighten around it. i start gripping the bed sheets.
“open your mouth slut!”
i open my mouth and he shoves in my plug, fucking my mouth. i am gagging as he fucks my cunt and mouth. every time i gag my cunt tightens and pushes the dildo out. my eyes start to water as he gags my mouth.
“you know what i talked about at work the other day? i was telling my co-workers what a slut you are. tell them that i fuck your ass and that you will do anything. i may just bring them home and let them fuck your ass you whore.”
my cunt leaks hearing this. a flurry of images course through my mind. i start to shake. he yanks out the plug from my mouth. shoves his finger into my ass. i come so hard thinking of you just using me.